Saying Goodbye too soon

Today marks 2 years that Owen went to heaven.  I remember all too well May 27th, 2010.....  The sounds of all the alarms as Owen was "coding" the visions of nurses trying to resuscitate him...  Letting him go....  That was the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my whole life..  That horrible day that I wish I could erase from history.  I feel like I have too many days that I wish I could erase from history.  I wish I had both of my boys here with me.  Clearly God has other plans for us.  I will never understand why He took both of our boys let alone either of them.  My heart hurts when I think of all the pain Owen had to endure in his 7 months and 6 days that he graced this earth.  You would have never known he was in any pain.  Looking back now I know that he was in pain.  Sweet sweet boy... 

Owen, you are loved and missed dearly..  Daddy and Mommy would love to selfishly have you & your brother back!!!! 

Our last family photo